"I think it's a sin to sit down and let your life go, without making a try for it."

I'm having the second week of musical blues.. This happens every year.  Every year I get stressed out two weeks in, and want to give up.  But I can't do that this year.  Just stressed and tired and the whole Kathryn Waugh thing really upset me, and I don't do well if I go without seeing my grandparents this long... they have always been the people I could talk to candidly and know that they care about me and have my back.  If I burn out now.. it's gonna show.. I just gotta get back to being excited about this thing again.  I just gotta quit worrying about enviro learning log, biology learning log, spanish project, english quote chart thing, family party, learning act one lines, church stuff including youth rally at new philly that all has to get done this weekend somehow.. ahh... okay so writing that all out made it worse.  I  CAN DO THIS!  ... ... ... right?

Haha.. on the plus side.. my dad who has not really been excited about this play.. and didn't want me to do it.. (actually kinda told me to drop out after day one..) has started being slightly more supportive.  I think my mom talked to him.  My mom is funny because she's all upset at Kathryn ditching me and keeps telling me that I'm just too nice and that's why people walk all over me.. (and I think to myself.. and that's where the sarcasm came from too.. it was my coping mechanism back in the day).  But now I have the best friends anyone could ask for.  I can do this.. because I have the greatest support system in the world.  No Willy Loman here.