"I think it's a sin to sit down and let your life go, without making a try for it."

Unless Elizabeth Golden writes a blog about it...

So since there were pictures taken and their is some blackmail, I figure I might as well let everything out in the open about this trip.  First of all I'll, the boring details.. the Aquarium and Agatha's were both pretty cool.  Six Flags was alright.. I got a little too bumped around.  Sweet Charity was absolutely 100% amazing.  And then there was today.. kinda crappy.  Why? Okay.. let me take you back....

On Thursday I said that I had made a decision, but I didn't say what that decision was.. well.. here it goes.  I've had a little crush on Michael Doyle for a couple of months.  It wasn't really anything I was ready to commit to, so for the most part, I was just kinda letting things take their course.  Well, last week, I decided that I did like him enough to commit.  It had nothing to do with other people and things they were saying, it was completely based off the fact that the more I spend time with the kid the more I like him.  I realized that if I ever did seriously date Michael Doyle, that there would be some rough areas with religion and stuff, but I decided I was ready to face that.  Friday, I get on the bus.. I was one of the last people there, and low and behold, everyone that I would have sat with was pretty much sitting with other people already, except there is this empty seat beside Michael.  Well, five hours later, there we are at the aquarium, and there Michael is holding my hand.. People kept pulling me aside asking me if we were going out.  "No.." I say, "but I'm not gonna say that I would mind too much if it headed that way." So then here comes Saturday.  All day he was always holding my hand.  I fell asleep on his shoulder going back to the hotel (that's when the pictures were taken I do believe).  We were pretty much all over each other, and ever time we were seperated someone was telling me how cute we were or asking me if we were dating yet.  To which I say no, and I wouldn't mind if it takes several weeks to get there.  I just wanna take this really slow.  Well, we head to the musical.  Michael is unusually quiet.  I asked several times if he was okay, and he just shrugs it off.  Then after the musical last night, he told me that it wasn't going to work out.   It would be too difficult and he rattled off several reasons why.  Me, caught slightly off guard, just says whatever and I walked to my room.  He called me to make sure I was alright, and then tried to explain himself., saying over and over again that I'm amazing and stuff like that, and it's his fault.

He still sat beside me today on the ride home.  I hit him probably about 100 times at random points during the ride, to show him that I am still a little upset that he led me on for two days.  There I was all ready to take whatver ever obstacles that relationship would bring, and he doesn't even have the courage to face one.  I still like the kid.  He knows I still like him.  But I'm not going to dwell on it anymore after today.  It was still a really wonderful weekend.  No homework.  Just fun and cuddling and having a great group of friends to hang out with.  It really was a beautiful trip.