"I think it's a sin to sit down and let your life go, without making a try for it."

I am so frustrated.  I just knew that this was going to happen.  I don't know why I figured she would be different this time.  It's just like tenth grade all over agian.  Kathryn WAugh and I have been saying for ages that we were going to room together at Carolina.  For like over a year that's been my expectation.  This is one of the main reasons why I had decided on Carolina over Virginia Tech.  WE had talked about it.. decided on the place and everything, and then she all up and decides not to room with me.  I guess I'm childish for letting this get to me, but I have had such a stressful week, and I guess this was the last straw for me.  Even my mother is angry.. my mother never gets angry.  I just knew she would do this.  She always backs out on me with some excuse about her parents every time.... I'm always there for her, but where is she for me... It doesn't take much to get me thinking, and I'm all upset and I check my e-mail to see that I got accepted into Viriginia TEch's Honor's Program.. maybe I should reconsider this.. Maybe I should go back and look into both colleges again and re-evaluate my position.  I don't know.. I am just so dissappointed. It doesn't help to be stressed out trying to get everything done and then go home to a stressed family.. I swear my dad is so sucked into work.. all the time.  HE gets 60 e-mails an hour most of the time.  At nine p.m. his stupid blackberry starts buzzing saying he has e-mail.... "China's awake, I gotta answer these."  At least I finally got him on my side on a few issues.. like the price of AP exams is great when compared to college tuition.  Whatever.  Whatever.  I wish I really could be Rose in real life.  She has it made.  Oh Lord.. Just help me out please!